I am so embarassed, we've all been annoying and obnoxious when we were little, and omg the things we put online. I just found ONE of my old xangas and I've read over them, I don't remember typing any of those things down. OMG so embarassing I swear, I got annoyed of myself while I was reading {><}! When I was little I made lots of xangas and myspaces and a crap load of SN's. I can't keep up! I also made a lot of emails, oh how I've scattered everywhere.

So about two weeks or last week I got my report card and I've manage to keep my straight A's(: Recently for Thanksgivings break I went to Houston to visit my family, we didn't even get to eat anything for the holidays ! I was super bored and disgusted. I wanted to go home so bad. I slept there for one night and me and my mom went to my cousin's house, oh what a relief, I was satisfied. I was also bored, but atleast I wasn't disgusted. I was so glad to go home I almosted peed in my pants, because before we left I didn't want to go pee in my grandparent's house.
When I got home me and my brother had to go up to my auntie's house to get my dog. When we got in the car I examined her and omg she lost weight, usually I wouldn't be able to pull the skin near her tail, but now I can. My auntie said that she wouldn't eat, won't let anyone touch her, and she would bark and yell. What a bad girl, ughh.
When I was in my bed I laid there ready to sleep, I waited and waited, I couldn't sleep until 12:30.. I was disappointed. I wanted to get atleast 8 or 9 hours of sleep, but I got 7.

So currently my face is healing from pimple scars and I am almost clear... not once again ! I am still in need of buying people Christmas presents and products that I need. I was thinking of getting the iTouch and giving my iPod to my little cousin, but I know I am not gonna get the iTouch for awhile.
My mom is looking for a laptop, I've been wanting this laptop for awhile, but it is $600 and my mom is looking for a $300 one, she said that I can share with her for high school and after that she can buy me my beautiful laptop(:

So did I mention the phone that I've been wanting since forever? Well I think it costs about $400 without the plan for AT&T and I am a T-Mobile person, so I have to wait until March 2011 until my contract is up. But by then I might be able to get unlimited text :D ! I would also have to unlock the phone, which isn't a challenge, because I've already googled it, and it is simple ;P

So I've been drifting away from my friends, I haven't been talking to them like I used to back then, I miss it, I don't know what is up with me, but I need to start talking to them again. I haven't been productive on facebook either, it's not fun if you aren't talking to anyone on there. facebook + interaction = fun facebook + nothing = boring

I need to buy a new backpack, I need to give Gary's backpack back ! Your backpack looks big on me, it makes me look smaller and I don't need to be any smaller :P

SICK OF IT !

I am so fcuking tired of hearing that you are smarter than me, that you always know what to do, that I am always so fcuking wrong. Well I can't take it anymore. Don't be surprised that one day I will blow up in your fcuking face and storm out of the house. I am tired of you fcuking hitting me because I never listen to your stupid explanations on how to do something your way, and how I always argue back at you. Well I don't give a damn. I know what I am doing and I know what is good for me. Fcuk you I don't care what the fcuk happens to you. You and your stupid husband as well. You guys can go fcuk off, I am up to here with you. I am always doing whatever you ask me to do, I let you have it your way, but when I say something that I know is right and fcuking SIMPLE, it isn't fcuking rocket science. Getting all worked up over one little problem, damn it isn't even a fcuking problem, I get it all the time and now you get all start up. FCUK YOU! FCUK YOUR LIFE. I HATE HOW YOU RUN THINGS, I HATE YOU! Just shut the fcuk up and leave me alone. Keep your idiotic thoughts to your damn self.

My hair is frustrating me! I have not so long damaged hair. I want to trim it, but I don't want to waste money! Grrr. Styling it has got even harder, all I can do is straighten it to tame it down. When I curl it it looks like a short wig... ugh. I really need to trim it, I guess I'll do it in the winter or something.

School is a drag, it is way boring. I really wish winter break would come, I need more sleep. I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. I guess because my stomach is empty, even though I ate dinner. I want to wake up on my own! I don't want to hear an alarm tone or people/things waking me up with their loud obnoxious noises. I must say I am a light sleeper in the morning. I guess when I first fall asleep I can't hear anything at all, unless you scream like a mother fcuker in my ears. I want sleep.

I am started to find new songs to play on the piano, my parents have been bothering me about not playing piano anymore. I hate playing piano whenever somebody WANTS me to. I want to play whenever I WANT to. Whenever I do play piano on my own I only play for a minute or so and then get up and do something else. Piano doesn't interest me anymore. It is quite boring.
I wanted to play guitar a while back. I learn the basic things, not the notes, but the frets and strings, and I kinda tuned it. When I started playing some chords I was like "wait a minute" my fingers had a really hard time stretching. I hate whenever things get hard I quit. I have been doing that lately. I've gotten lazy.

So I can't wait for my Auntie's and Uncle's house to be done! I want to sleep over ASAP. I really do like their house a whole lot, even though it is kinda small. But their backyard is big! I really don't like swimming, but I really want to swim in their pool ;P I am really proud of my Auntie. She can do a man's job. I know her life is all set. She can do a lot of things, and she is really smart. She thinks things through unlike the rest of our family. She has a plan and she follows it, maybe changing little things, but it is still organized. She is my favorite Auntie like forreals(:

I am so excited! My face has cleared up! I haven't had my face this clear in a long time. My forehead scars are almost gone, they are slowly fading away. I should have tried this long time ago. My cheeks are so smooth(: I am really happy and glad that I can soon grow out my bangs. I've been tired of having short bangs for awhile now and I just want to put them up, but I don't want to show my scarred forehead to the world. But now that I'm thinking of it, I might look a bit weird without bangs. I have a weird shaped head that I am NOT proud of >< Oh well we'll see.

Ahh first period, how boring right? I think whenever I blog it will always be in this one class right har. So yesterday was nice, Sherri looked amazing and bootifulicious(: She had so many presents! What a poopular girl<3 She said my present was heavy, oh wells! ilovesherricruz!

So anyway I also found out yesterday that my friend likes my other friend and something something CHOKE DIE GRRR! So I am trying to help out even though I don't know much about what is going on. I love helping people, it is nice, and I feel accomplished and happy.

I have to admit I wasn't so thrilled about what happened yesterday I knew something was going on and I just didn't give a damn until now. I don't care... that was a complete lie. I want to do something about it, but I can't I don't want to be a bad person. This sucks booty. I hate this feeling. When I thought something was there, it wasn't. I have to start all over again. This isn't what I wanted, SHOO no body wants this to happen. I just have to deal with it I guess. Unless I can do something about it. We'll see...

We used to be so close, I miss you. You make my laugh and smile so hard. I'd talk to you everyday and you'd make me so happy. Now you aren't even looking at me, you make me seem like I am not special to you anymore, you don't tell me what's wrong and you don't tell me what is going on in your world. We would talk about anything and everything, and I would put you first, but I feel like I am just another person you know and just met. I miss you so much, why do you have to treat me like this. I want to go back to the pass how we were. You push me away when I want you close. You act like I am a total stranger. You talk to me differently. I sometimes wonder what are we now?

Tell me what you are thinking, please?

Oh my

So I am currently in my 1st period class with nothing to do. I have finished all my work as always and I sit here staring into the desktop. Today is Sherri Cruz's and Marilyn Monrreals' birthday(: I wrapped Sherri's present with the gold wrapping paper, that my mom saved from many years ago. I was very impressed that I still got it(: It is currently in an American Eagle bag with a Victoria Secret paper thing ontop so people wouldn't see what is inside. I wrote an unappealing not to Sherri too ><>

Let's go back to 103109 Saturday Halloween.

Well while everybody had plans and went out I stayed home bored to tears. I called my cousin up and made plans to go to the mall. We went to Galleria and I was running everywhere trying to buy people stuff. I had $160 now I have about $30. I am going to return some stuff later on this weekend if I can so I can get my $55 back ;P

That night we watched The Hangover, it was a nice movie, wasn't lame, wasn't awesome, but it was decent.

110109 - Sunday

I went to Target to get some other supplies I needed, I finally got a decent pencil/pen holder thing and my camera case(: that I love, but bleh about. Ouuu and I also bought some Tresemme shampoo and conditioner, I CAN NOT WAIT! To use them(: Oh my interest in hair. I heard it was super good and I would fall in love, so I can't wait.

I am currently using Pantene Beautiful Lengths, I like it a lot, but I have been seeing a lot of hair on my bed ><>

School is currently a drag, it is going kinda fast, but not fast enough. I am still waiting for the year to get better. I am meeting new people and hanging out a little bit more I guess ><>

I think Houston sucks! There is nothing to do there, even though it is the biggest city in Texas I think? I don't know.

I had my first straight A's ever, but I think that is going to be gone by the time report card goes out. Whatever, oh well school work isn't my thing, but I manage to get through it I guess. I am currently thinking about what electives to take next year. I really don't like being a freshmen, almost everybody in my class makes me go crazy. Plus I don't like my english teacher, she is currently giving us PREAP stuff to do, WTF? We took regular for a reason