So I woke up around 12 and went back to sleep. I guess I was at this strange place that you would see in a kung fu dojo or what not. Something about finding the Airbender and the five elements of water, fire, earth, wind, and lighting. Yeah whatever. I was now piggy back riding on Peang's back who is supposedly my boyfriend. So we are outside on a winter night with cute little bunnies on these tables covered in a white cloth and with beautiful lights on the decorations. It was like a dream, which it was(: So he was carrying me around to look for rings that we were going to get for us. I was holding something and I guess it was a communication device to talk to Peang. So I guess I was never really with him in the first place, but I was. He told me to give the "phone" to Mu and I did. She was all awwing and CUTE, and saying how he was so sweet. She went into the champagne isle and got a champagne cause Peang told her to. He was telling her all the things he wanted to do and get for our date Monday haha yeah. Much more things happened, but it was all too confusing to remember. I wish I could remembered lastnight's dream.

I haven't done these in awhile well I don't remember how it started, but I was in Judy's house? Khoi and Judy had went out and I was in Judy's room with Michelle Trinh. I blew dried my hair and then I walked into my mother's bathroom with Phuong and I was just standing there and I looked in the mirror with the sun's rays shining and then there was this white mass, a hand grabbing me, I swung all around and it went away. I got up and started walking around the neighborhood and I ended up at this certain person's house, let's call him Round. So Round opened up the door and I see that it was the structure of my grandparent's house in houston and there were twisted stairs that goes up the Round's room. He lifted me up and carried me upstairs and layed me on his couch, it was more of a bed with soft borders around. There was a TV over head and a mini TV on the side of the bed. I was watching Nanny Fran(: He left to go to the bathroom and came back. He sat behind me with his back to the wall and he pulled me back to cuddle with him. It was not right, but I felt really good. I miss having a boyfriend. I miss all the cuddling and the feeling of butterflies in my stomach whenever I talk to someone. Well anyway Visith was there all of a sudden dressed like he was in his default picture, handsome(: Then Phuong called and Visith was talking to her and all of a sudden she was there with us in the room with Visith and me still cuddling with Round.

I would love to blog more about my dreams, but recently I can't get a good long dream in awhile, most of them are just choppy episodes that mean nothing to me at all. Hopefully with this three day weekend I would get the chance to have wonderful dreams, but I doubt that since the dog is always waking me up on the weekends, pisses me the fcuk off.

Three more days of school left and hello summer. I still don't feel like school is ending, but I'm glad it is! I'm tired of the same old routine everyday, I'm tired of seeing the same boring, annoying ass faces, and I'm definetly tired of waking up early. Like in the beginning of the school year, next year I am going to be more focused on my school work. I'll study more, since I've never actually really studied in my entire life and I will definetly try to be nicer.

Books

Well since I've decided to take English 2 Preap I totally forgot about the summer reading requirements, I've picked a couple of books that I found interesting and I'm hoping that after these books I won't want to read anymore(:

All We Know of Heaven by Jacquelyn Mitchard: Bridget Flannery and Maureen O’Malley are neighbors, and have been BFFs since they were tiny. They're also nearly identical, with small frames, blonde hair and big almond-shaped green eyes. Both girls take great pride in being cheerleaders (and hate that cheerleaders seem to get no respect). But charismatic Bridget is really the leader of the two, with Maureen happily following along. The two don't keep secrets from each other --- except for a huge one about Danny, Bridget's boyfriend, that Maureen could never tell anyone, regarding an incident between them that was surely a fluke.
On a December drive, everything changes when Bridget and Maureen's car collides with a truck. The girls are hurt so badly that they are unrecognizable. The emergency medical personnel are able to maintain Bridget long enough to get her to the hospital. They don't hold out much hope for poor, broken Maureen, who is in even worse shape than her friend. However, surgeons work on both patients, with Bridget surviving the surgery in a coma after multiple resuscitations. Sadly, Maureen doesn't live.
Meanwhile, the girl in the coma is trying to form thoughts. She can't think clearly. She believes she’s dead, but is puzzled. Isn't heaven supposed to be a beautiful, wonderful place? She hurts everywhere, with pain so bad that she has no words to describe the agony. Bridget's family visits her every day in the Pediatric Care Unit. Her boyfriend, Danny, comes regularly, too. As he sits by her bed, Danny remembers the funeral service for Maureen and is overwhelmed with sorrow. He loves Bridget, but he and Maureen shared a special bond of friendship. And of course there was the one evening they shared --- the one they don't discuss with anyone, ever.
Danny also thinks about how Bridget would hate the way she looks, with her face in stitches, her dirty hair pulled into a ponytail, and parts of her scalp covered in bandages because of the surgery on her head. Bridget's cheek has been rebuilt, and she has many broken bones. The doctors warn her parents that brain damage is inevitable; they aren't sure how much long-term disability she will suffer, but at the least they predict she will have to learn again how to walk and talk and feed herself. The experts also caution them that she may very well not recognize her own family members.
One night, as Danny sits watching over Bridget, something amazing happens. She tries to talk. When Danny encourages her, calling her his pet name "Bridge," she says, "Mo-ruh." Danny is so excited, he shouts. And when Bridget's mother comes running, he tells her that Bridget said "Mother." But in actuality, the girl is telling him that she is not Bridget --- she is Maureen! When the truth comes out, it is, of course, wonderful news for many people yet devastating for others…and attracts a huge media circus.
Maureen's story is based on an actual event involving two young women, a terrible accident and a case of mistaken identity. In the hands of brilliant storyteller Jacquelyn Mitchard, it is a riveting tale of despair and joy, which feels remarkably true to life. In particular, the reactions of the girls' mothers and friends seem pitch-perfect. Readers will root for Maureen as she fights to remake her life in the face of almost insurmountable physical, emotional and social hardships.
http://www.teenreads.com/reviews/9780061345784.asp

Along for the Ride by Sarah Dessen: It's been so long since Auden slept at night. Ever since her parents' divorce—or since the fighting started. Now she has the chance to spend a carefree summer with her dad and his new family in the charming beach town where they live.
A job in a clothes boutique introduces Auden to the world of girls: their talk, their friendship, their crushes. She missed out on all that, too busy being the perfect daughter to her demanding mother. Then she meets Eli, an intriguing loner and a fellow insomniac who becomes her guide to the nocturnal world of the town. Together they embark on parallel quests: for Auden, to experience the carefree teenage life she's been denied; for Eli, to come to terms with the guilt he feels for the death of a friend.
http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Along-for-the-Ride/Sarah-Dessen/e/9780670011940
Lastnight I read something about this book with a little more detail than this, but I guess this will work for now.

Also lastnight while I was looking up the books on the summer reading list I remembered about this story I read long time ago and I loved it so much! I cried everytime I read it.
What I Did For Love: http://universalbuddy.tripod.com/story.htm
I got it originally from Cathy of course(: So I sent my English teacher this link and she said that she'll definetly check it out.

Next years classes

So yeah I've decided to take:
AP World History
PREAP Geometry
PREAP Chemistry
PREAP English
Japanese 1
Cosmetology 1
I'm probably doing the same thing Junior year.
Then my senior year I'm taking Theatre Tech and then my 4 course classes.
I'm scared of my course classes, well not Geometry of course(: Yesterday my preap algebra 1 teacher told me I got commended on my math TAKS(: Although I didn't get an A it's still fine with me.

Q: hey nigguh. you uglier than a piece of shit. go suck a nut, bitch. aint nobody like you either.
A: Hey nigga, I don't care. No body likes me? You're dumb.

Sorry Cathy I made a formspring, not because I wanted to, but because I was curious. Of course I'm just an average person, I'm not gonna get a lot of questions. I don't really care. Whatever questions or comments I get, I'd love to answer them(:

formspring.me/lucyxboii

I'm losing it

I've been anti-social for the longest time. I don't ever seem to go out at all, only with family though. I feel so disconnected with everybody, I feel like I have no friends at all. The only people I talk to are the ones that don't annoy me in my class. I hate this feeling, I hate not having time after school to hang out. I would wonder the halls, but I am trying to avoid some unwanted company. I miss everybody, I want to laugh and smile to my heart's content once more. I am getting lazier and lazier to make plans, the only reason I don't want to go out on the weekends is because I want to stay in and relax, which I haven't had much time of because of school. I know it's almost over, but I am sick of getting up early and getting annoyed, so terribly annoyed. The last time I actually hung out was with Cathy, Thien, Tiffany, and David. I had fun, I loved it. I wish I could do it again. Summer is a new beginning, a chance to hang out with all my friends. I am going try to put more effort in making plans with people, I think it's such a hassle though.
I started my period Monday and I've been so bitchy, so so bitchy. I haven't been liket his in a long time, I guess I can't hold in my anger like I used to, it's a sign that I need to get away from school, NOW.

This is annoying. I don't remember when it started, but I remember how. I would lay in bed waiting to fall asleep and I would cough constantly, I ignored it. Then it started getting worst and worst. I can't stand it. Just a few days ago my throat was scratchy, it was painful. Same as yesterday morning, so I drank a lot of water and when I would pee I can see that my pee was lighter than usual, Skyler told me that it was a good sign that I wasn't dehydrated. Right now I'm just trying to get as much water into my body and stop coughing. Stupid allergies.

I am just so exhausted, I really want school to end right now, we have about 3 weeks left and I don't think I can make it before I go crazy and start bitching at my friends. I can already see that I am starting to get bitchy, I was getting really annoyed in 5th period. I am always annoyed, Henry and Jesse are just so FCUKING ANNOYING! They will not stop messing around. They need to grow up. Right now I guess I am suppose to be catching up on my 1st period assignments, but I don't really give a crap about anything right now. I just need some sleep, and I know this weekend isn't gonna cover it. I've been missing a few days of school lately and I still need to make up with assignment in 3rd period, I don't feel like doing it. Right now my goal is to stop picking at the scab under my chin or neck or whatever. Same as my nose, and a few on my forhead. My skin is almost clear once again. I'm just not having that energy I used to have. I just don't care anymore.