That one person

Now you dont have to specifically like that person, but everyone has that one person that they talk to everyday and all day constantly without getting bored. Then one day you guys don't talk at all and all these questions pop up in your head as to why. Your day becomes sad and boring. You don't feel like talking to anyone else but them. Every single call or message you get, you automatically think it's them. You get too used to talking to them, it's your medicine to keep you sane and occupied. And finally when you guys do talk again after a whole day of silence you return back to y'alls normal daily routine. And it makes you feel happy and whole again.

You scare me.

You have so many problems that I don't even know nor understand. I try not to give you any problems, which I never seem to have. My life is good, happy, and loving. I just feel so helpless not being able to help you at all. It's not my place to get involved anyway, I'm always here to listen. I feel good when you can vent to ME. I know you have probably said all you needed to say to someone else that understands better than me, but it feels good just talking to you. You are probably one of the strongest person I know. I know you say you aren't, but hey you are still here and healthy. You aren't doing stupid things right? I feel bad that you have so much things going on. I'm still trying to understand what you are going through. I know I should just worry about my life and leave yours to you. I'm still young, I'm still trying to learn, but I really hate it when you tell me 'You're too young to understand or hear this.' Makes me feel less than I already am. I feel like a baby around you. And every time we are together you know how I act. I go completely blonde whenever I am with you. Is that the reason why you thank I'm too young? Because I act like a total and complete idiot? Yeah I know you aren't comfortable telling me all of these stuff, but I am going to hear about things way worst one day. You should know that I can handle anything you tell me. I'm not trying to guilt you into explaining every single detail of your life to me. I just wanted to let you know that I love you with all my heart, and it kinda hurts knowing that you are about to crack, and please hang in there. Just know that I will support you in any RATIONAL decision you make.

Almost there

4 more school days until spring break. I can not wait. More opportunity for me to sleep and hopefully dream up something good. I've been lazy in school work. I don't care if I finish my homework, I don't care to turn it in on time. I had all A's last year, but this year I have majority of B's. Hopefully next year I don't drop down to C's. Considering I'm taking AP Physics, AP English, and Preap Algebra 2. I really hope I don't die next year. I hate school so much, SO SO MUCH. It's only because of the idiots that run around the damn school. I hate people. I am so mean this year, I don't give a fuck about anyone or anything anymore. I get so annoyed. This year is just not my year. I mean yeah this year I have been real with everyone, and like always I have no drama. I've also been a good friend, and not acting like a fucking dumbass like all the other girls in this school. I need to cut my nails it's freaking annoying typing. Ohkay so much better. I miss my bestfriend so much! He needs to come home! I remember when I was young I would always bitch about not being about to go out as much as I wanted to. But now that I am older I don't feel like going anywhere at all. Like what the hell right? I'm just too effing lazy to go anywhere to to do anything. I just feel like it's a hassle. Plus if I go out too much I wouldn't be as much fun for me than if I don't go out as much you know? I don't know I'm just rambling on and on about nothing. Still unsure about my future. Still don't feel like going to college. Go pre med? Ehhh I don't know anymore. I repeat I hate school, why would I want to go to college? This whole family wants us kids to make MONEY GOOD money. Well we just want to do something we LOVE. I love hair. I love pretty stuff. I love animals and I love FOOD. I also kinda like decorating(: Too bad I have no creativity in this fat head of mines. In cosmetology right now we just learned how to blow dry properly and straighten it properly. I can say that I am so beast at it. We also learned how to do virgin tint to darker, no base virgin tint, and bleach retouch. First semester I was also so beast at facials and manicures. What am I not good at? Lol jk. I just really good at anything cosmetology related.. so far. I'm getting fatter. Like seriously I have wings I can fly away right now if I wanted. I have a nasty gut man, and my double chin it's still there. I can work out right now if I wanted too, but that's not going to help unless I change my diet, and living with my mother isn't going to help. Her food is just too delicious! I feel fat. I'm still going strong. I'm still as confident as ever and I still have that high self esteem that lots of people long for. First semester I was so good on not caring what I looked like, because I have no love interest, not crushing on anyone. I didn't have to worry about all that stuff. Up until the beginning of this semester I started worrying about how I looked like and how I should put my face and what to talk about. All because of a cute boy in my class. It's ohkay we're just friends. I went back to the way I was after we started getting more comfortable with each other. I'm just so ready for the school year to be over with. I might be started driving school this summer(: I can't wait. I am so excited. I and probably going to get a car senior year >:B Cosmetology had a Quiz Bowl contest last month and me and these other 4 girls won first place! That means we get to go to Corpus Christi March 30 - April 2 along with a lot of other girls that had contests in different categories. I am so excited. Going to Corpus with cosmo girls is going to be crazy I just know it. I've also came to realize that I like Justin Bieber and I support anything he does. Like his new haircut? Thumbs up and Selena Gomez? Double the celeb love(: Selena is my favorite Disney Channel girl baby! My hair is getting longer! It's just to the bottom of my nipples. Not pass my boobs yet): I've been trimming my own hair! No more wasting my money at the salon on something I can do myself the way I want! No more waiting with damaged ends until my next hair appointment. I'm not styling my bangs as side swept anymore. I just split it in the middle or to the side a bit. I don't care anymore. My eyesight is going bad again. I find myself needed to wear glasses more often than usual. I actually wearing them right now... geezus. It's because of the iTouch, I just know it. Anyway I'm still alive and I am just as real as I was before. I love life.

It's been awhile.

Let's catch up shall we? Well for the past 6 months nothing much has changed. My family from France came over for summer and we had a nice time, not as good as last summer when he was here, but that's only because he was by himself. He got so much bigger since last summer. I mean his muscles got bigger and he got taller. He cut his hair too haha. One thing I remember was that when we went to North Park, this girl went up to him and asked him if she could have a hug and he was like what? then she was like oh no? ohkay.. FUCK YOU BITCH! DON'T TOUCH MY HANDSOME FOREIGN COUSIN! haha omg the whole family thinks he so handsome man... no question about it. Sophomore year started and it was nothing exciting.. just a lot of classes in A hall. Cosmetology is interesting though, I'm so glad I took it. Recently Binh left for the Army on the 1st, I miss him a lot. He was one of few friends I could actually let myself go. No love interest yet, but I'm in no rush. I need to be more social though. Well I am more social this year than I was last year I guess because I have A BIT more freedom. I'm 16(: but I still feel like a kid... I still feel like 16 year olds don't get much respect, so I'll feel SOOOO much better when I'm 17 haha. I'm still thinking about my life after high school... I kinda don't want to go to college, but I have to. I really don't want to graduate from school to go into school later on. I don't know I'll still as confused as ever.

This dream is a little bit embarrassing for me so I'll put it up on here.
My parents, Phuong, and I got out of the car and we were in the parking lot at church. Phuong ran inside and almost got hit by a freaking car, idiot. So there was this huge yearly event that everybody MUST attend to. There were even people that didn't even go to our church and weren't even Vietnamese or ASIAN. I was looking through the windows for Phuong and she finally showed up. She told me that the tires of the car rubbed up against her legs, but she barely noticed. Everybody started to show up and just chill and catch up. I saw Binh and I was like HEYY WASSUP! I told him that he didn't meet my mom yet so I went down the hall with him and now we are in my house. I opened the door to the patio on the back from my mom's room and she was there sitting and talking with Cathy. Binh sat on this chair and started playing video games, I closed the door and went into the bathroom. But I went back out and opened the door to the patio again to tell Binh that I was changing, but he was replaced with Justin Bieber lol. So I told Justin that I was going to change and he was like cool, I'll wait out here and play games. I changed into shorts and I put everything away that was on the counter, which took the longest time and I don't even think that was necessary. I walked out the door and there were these two black girls or Mexican.. I forgot. They were threatening me to stay away from Justin cause he was theirs or something. Thankfully Co Thao came in and asked me 'What are you doing here? Get out.' wheew. I went down the hall and opened the door to my room and Phuong wasn't there. I looked in the brother's room and these random people were there. I went into my living room and there she was. I looked out the patio glass doors and asked Phuong where Justin was, she told me he was out there. I went out and I saw him. I went up to him and started talking and laughing, chilling. Those girls came back out and was just standing together talking amongst themselves mean mugging me. I held onto Justin's hand and he asked me what I was doing on Saturday. He wanted to go to Sea World with me. I said sure let's do it! It was night time and I had to wear sunglasses and a hat to cover up my face cause the paparazzi's were there. I heard a reporter woman say 'Justin Bieber is at Sea World, but with a mystery girl. Who can this lucky lady be?' We enjoyed our time there, we went on this bus that was going to take us back home. We were in the back and were just talking. He arrived at his house and we looked at each other. We were struggling to hug cause we didn't know what to do. I gave him a hug, but he was still there staring at me. It was kinda awkward cause I didn't know what he wanted, but I know what I wanted(: I leaned in and kissed him. I pulled back and he was still looking at me. So I gave him a hug and he kissed me once more. Now I was like.. is he not leaving? So we both leaned in for a last kiss and he was off the bus walking to his house... so cute! I woke up thinking, wait was that forreals? Are me and Justin cool now? What is going on?! That was a very nice dream, but a bit embarrassing for me to have a Bieber crush ;P

Blogger imma replace you with tumblr: http://lucyxboii.tumblr.com/
You've been good to me. I'm keeping this though to keep up with Cathy Do(:
too bad tumblr isn't as simple as blogger, i'm just getting tumblr to follow justin toyosato... hot

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY ALLEN VAN DO! I really miss you and I love you dearly.

Amazingly creepy

I was in the hallway with some friends and I see David all dress in this cute little outfit that I can't make out. I walked outside and school is over and everybody was getting ready to swim, I walk down the sidewalk of all the pools and I see Victoria and Elsa who was getting ready as well. I walked around and I see David fingering the "come over here" sign and I did and gave him a big hug and told him that he looked cute in his little outfit. I got to the pool and I sat down. Then I was flipping through the channels on tv and each channel had this scene that was in the Grudge 3? [There was this particular scene where this girl rang this door and another girl opened up and she would be drinking milk "listening" to the other girl talk. Well the girl who drank all the milk would throw back up in the bottle and drink it again, it was disgusting.] I was suddenly in the scene and I would run around the apartment looking for these things, [everything was green like it was tinted green and stuff] I got the things and ran out the door, down the hall, and into this master bedroom, I slid the stuff into the closet and my "boyfriend's" mother and sister came in the room.
He came in and I jumped on him and kissed him.. it was cute(: He had blue hair which just came down all smooth and sexily. So he carried me down the hall into my the master bedroom at my grandparent's house. We laid on the bed cuddling with me staring at his cute face. We both said we were hungry so we got up and walked down the hall and I see Kevin Ngo and his girlfriend Amanda Thao, cute, but weird that they're at my grandparent's house in Houston. So I'm walking hand in hand with my lovely into the kitchen and I see all these people that aren't family there picking at the foods on the table.
This is the sad part ): I turned around cause I heard this disembodied voice and I'm facing the couch in my other living room, my boyfriend is no where to be seen >.< I was there with my family, which included the Nguyen family. We sat on the couches trying to get the spirits to leave or something like that. This went on for about 5 minutes in my head. We couldn't find any spirits so everybody was packing up to leave, which I didn't get at all because it was our house after all lol. I went into my mom's room to get my headband. I see this cute white boy sleeping on the bed with my headband on his arm. The room felt so cool and spaced out, but it was just normal, lucky white boy. So I slowly took the headband off his arm and went out the door to go "home".
We arrived at the mall and I was with Kevin Ngo and Nguyen. David left and I was just with Kevin. We walked over to where the boxers were and I was looking for black boxers in a medium size. Henry and Liem where there as well. I left them to look for a matching black shirt. I see Alexis strolling down in a cart and we were just talking. I went to the second floor and I found this perfect shirt. My mom called me and she told me to hurry up cause we were leaving. That's all I remember.

Heart racing

Yesterday Friday O6O41O
I went with my cousin to Richland College to drop off some papers and then we went to her casa and waited for Phuong so we can go swimming at my uncle's. We swam for 3 hours, not long enough ): Yeah and I came home doing nothing, but play pool on OMGPOO..<3 I couldn't sleep until 3 last night? Not cool.

So let's see I was at Berkner with Cathy and Thien, we walked to her car and I see that the passenger seat door was like torn off. I went on my bus and I sat there looking around at these people that I've never seen before. It was weird, everyone was looking at me and talking to me in their language like wtf. So I got off the bus and I noticed that I didn't have my phone with me, I got back to the bus and picked up my phone on the steps. While I was walking the phone turned out to be some else's. These girls in front of me turned around and yelled "This isn't my phone!" So we traded back. Then Cathy drove up behind the bus and we were on the side of the Forestridge playground. I looked at these people on the side walking towards my house I figured so I took a shortcut and ran my butt of jumping over fences in slow motion lol. When I got to the intersection of Lawler and Whispering Hills I turned the corner and I was in this hallway. I was with Jessie Neal, this girl from my school and I was holding on to your back while she was running, cause well I can't run straight in my dreams. We were in the middle of this room with a bunch of other doors around us, then we started getting attacked my zombies, which I think is stupid cause I was closing my eyes and punching all around me, yeah whatever. We opened this door which lead to another room with a whole bunch of other doors. We picked this door which led to this room with about 5 guys in there, two of them were Peang Ngo and Andy Samburg<3 drool. Jessie was no longer Jessie she was now Phuong. So Phuong and Peang were just laying there on the bed talking. I backed up into Andy and I was like.. HEHEHE oops :P He was so hot bro. Yeah I wanted to kiss him so bad, but everyone and everything changed into a bathroom that looked so damn elegant, I looked out the window and I saw my mom out in the front lawn taking Chuoi to potty. I don't remember what happenend next, but I SHOULD'VE KISSED ANDY WHEN I HAD THE FRIGGIN' CHANCE!

This is ridiculous, this isn't fair what the kids have to go through. They don't understand what we do or how we feel. They just think that we are messy and ungrateful. I'm just glad that my mom understands, I love her. Just recently my brother and Nguyen told me that my mom really really likes me cause she sees potential in me, that's why she is so careful of me. "You're spoiled." my brother said, he said it before, but I just thought it was just stupid. I can see now that he is right, my mom does see more potential in me, but I don't. I just see that my brother is so amazing, he is smart and he knows what to do and how to deal with things. I think it's just amazing how he can get bitched at my other people and not show any anger until he is with us. He is not disrespectful at all, but I am... was. I just want to be more like him. That's why I am changing my ways, over these pass few months I've learned a lot and I am going to change, but not drastically of course. I am going to be more positive and look for more opportunities. I can't wait to see what the future has in stored for me(:
Cathy Do, I love you<3