I'm losing it

I've been anti-social for the longest time. I don't ever seem to go out at all, only with family though. I feel so disconnected with everybody, I feel like I have no friends at all. The only people I talk to are the ones that don't annoy me in my class. I hate this feeling, I hate not having time after school to hang out. I would wonder the halls, but I am trying to avoid some unwanted company. I miss everybody, I want to laugh and smile to my heart's content once more. I am getting lazier and lazier to make plans, the only reason I don't want to go out on the weekends is because I want to stay in and relax, which I haven't had much time of because of school. I know it's almost over, but I am sick of getting up early and getting annoyed, so terribly annoyed. The last time I actually hung out was with Cathy, Thien, Tiffany, and David. I had fun, I loved it. I wish I could do it again. Summer is a new beginning, a chance to hang out with all my friends. I am going try to put more effort in making plans with people, I think it's such a hassle though.
I started my period Monday and I've been so bitchy, so so bitchy. I haven't been liket his in a long time, I guess I can't hold in my anger like I used to, it's a sign that I need to get away from school, NOW.