Almost there

4 more school days until spring break. I can not wait. More opportunity for me to sleep and hopefully dream up something good. I've been lazy in school work. I don't care if I finish my homework, I don't care to turn it in on time. I had all A's last year, but this year I have majority of B's. Hopefully next year I don't drop down to C's. Considering I'm taking AP Physics, AP English, and Preap Algebra 2. I really hope I don't die next year. I hate school so much, SO SO MUCH. It's only because of the idiots that run around the damn school. I hate people. I am so mean this year, I don't give a fuck about anyone or anything anymore. I get so annoyed. This year is just not my year. I mean yeah this year I have been real with everyone, and like always I have no drama. I've also been a good friend, and not acting like a fucking dumbass like all the other girls in this school. I need to cut my nails it's freaking annoying typing. Ohkay so much better. I miss my bestfriend so much! He needs to come home! I remember when I was young I would always bitch about not being about to go out as much as I wanted to. But now that I am older I don't feel like going anywhere at all. Like what the hell right? I'm just too effing lazy to go anywhere to to do anything. I just feel like it's a hassle. Plus if I go out too much I wouldn't be as much fun for me than if I don't go out as much you know? I don't know I'm just rambling on and on about nothing. Still unsure about my future. Still don't feel like going to college. Go pre med? Ehhh I don't know anymore. I repeat I hate school, why would I want to go to college? This whole family wants us kids to make MONEY GOOD money. Well we just want to do something we LOVE. I love hair. I love pretty stuff. I love animals and I love FOOD. I also kinda like decorating(: Too bad I have no creativity in this fat head of mines. In cosmetology right now we just learned how to blow dry properly and straighten it properly. I can say that I am so beast at it. We also learned how to do virgin tint to darker, no base virgin tint, and bleach retouch. First semester I was also so beast at facials and manicures. What am I not good at? Lol jk. I just really good at anything cosmetology related.. so far. I'm getting fatter. Like seriously I have wings I can fly away right now if I wanted. I have a nasty gut man, and my double chin it's still there. I can work out right now if I wanted too, but that's not going to help unless I change my diet, and living with my mother isn't going to help. Her food is just too delicious! I feel fat. I'm still going strong. I'm still as confident as ever and I still have that high self esteem that lots of people long for. First semester I was so good on not caring what I looked like, because I have no love interest, not crushing on anyone. I didn't have to worry about all that stuff. Up until the beginning of this semester I started worrying about how I looked like and how I should put my face and what to talk about. All because of a cute boy in my class. It's ohkay we're just friends. I went back to the way I was after we started getting more comfortable with each other. I'm just so ready for the school year to be over with. I might be started driving school this summer(: I can't wait. I am so excited. I and probably going to get a car senior year >:B Cosmetology had a Quiz Bowl contest last month and me and these other 4 girls won first place! That means we get to go to Corpus Christi March 30 - April 2 along with a lot of other girls that had contests in different categories. I am so excited. Going to Corpus with cosmo girls is going to be crazy I just know it. I've also came to realize that I like Justin Bieber and I support anything he does. Like his new haircut? Thumbs up and Selena Gomez? Double the celeb love(: Selena is my favorite Disney Channel girl baby! My hair is getting longer! It's just to the bottom of my nipples. Not pass my boobs yet): I've been trimming my own hair! No more wasting my money at the salon on something I can do myself the way I want! No more waiting with damaged ends until my next hair appointment. I'm not styling my bangs as side swept anymore. I just split it in the middle or to the side a bit. I don't care anymore. My eyesight is going bad again. I find myself needed to wear glasses more often than usual. I actually wearing them right now... geezus. It's because of the iTouch, I just know it. Anyway I'm still alive and I am just as real as I was before. I love life.